Published by Soho Press on June 2nd 2015
Genres: Young Adult, Romance, Contemporary, LGBT
Source: Kindle (Amazon)
In the months after his father's suicide, it's been tough for 16-year-old Aaron Soto to find happiness again--but he's still gunning for it. With the support of his girlfriend Genevieve and his overworked mom, he's slowly remembering what that might feel like. But grief and the smile-shaped scar on his wrist prevent him from forgetting completely.
When Genevieve leaves for a couple of weeks, Aaron spends all his time hanging out with this new guy, Thomas. Aaron's crew notices, and they're not exactly thrilled. But Aaron can't deny the happiness Thomas brings or how Thomas makes him feel safe from himself, despite the tensions their friendship is stirring with his girlfriend and friends. Since Aaron can't stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound feelings for him, he considers turning to the Leteo Institute's revolutionary memory-alteration procedure to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.
Why does happiness have to be so hard?
I’ve heard SO MANY great reviews about this book, so I was pretty excited to start reading it and I swear I was super jumpy at the start. I just knew that this book was gonna break my heart, and I was absolutely right. I’m still sniffing from all the tears that I shed.
The main character, Aaron, was everything I could ever want in a main character. He was amazing, confused, stressed out, and basically a typical teenager. One of the genres of this book was LGBT and I have to admit — I was pretty scared because most of the other LGBT books had been more about sexual stuffs, rather than the topic of LGBT itself.
But this book, it showed one’s transition between being straight to being gay, and it’s pretty amazing, because it showed Aaron’s every thoughts. From his confusion, to the clarity of it all.
God, this book broke my heart a million times over and over again. Aaron had it HARD, let me tell you. I just want to hug him and tell him that everything will be okay. This book wasn’t only about one’s sexuality, but also about suicide, and my head was in a very bad place while reading this book, so I definitely needed that.
This book was mainly about trying to find one’s happiness amidst all the crappy situations he had going on. I am still not over this book and I don’t think I’ll be over it anytime soon. This book will sucker punch you when you’re 30% into the book. The starting was quite peaceful that you never really see the truck that will be gunning straight for your heart.
To summarize it all, this book was fucking beautiful. It was everything I needed to read and everything I could hold close to me. Everybody should read this book, whether you’re gay or not, because this book shows you how to be happy.
I was distracting myself however I could because thinking of you never waking up and being okay was fucking killing me. I missed you and I hope that’s okay to say.