Published by Balzer + Bray on October 27th 2015
Genres: Young Adult, Contemporary
Mattie shouldn’t be at the bonfire. She should be finding new maps for her collection, hanging out with Kris, and steering clear of almost everyone else, especially Jolene. After all, Mattie and Kris dropped off the social scene the summer after sophomore year for a reason.
But now Mattie is a senior, and she’s sick of missing things. So here she is.
And there’s Jolene: Beautiful. Captivating. Just like the stories she wove. Mattie would know; she used to star in them. She and Jolene were best friends. Mattie has the scar on her palm to prove it, and Jolene has everything else, including Hudson.
But when Mattie runs into Hudson and gets a glimpse of what could have been, she decides to take it all back: the boyfriend, the friends, the life she was supposed to live. Problem is, Mattie can’t figure out where Jolene ends and she begins.
Because there’s something Mattie hasn’t told anyone—she walked away from Jolene over a year ago, but she never really left.
Poignant and provocative, Marcy Beller Paul’s debut novel tells the story of an intoxicating—and toxic—relationship that blurs the boundary between reality and fantasy, love and loyalty, friendship and obsession.
I received this book for free from Edelweiss in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
WHAT. DID. I. JUST. READ?
I promise you that that gif is used in a positive WTF moment. HAHAHA. But really, truly, honestly, WHAT DID I JUST READ? *mindblown* Have you ever felt like you have that best friend that you just can’t seem to let go? Or boyfriend? Like, that person is legit toxic to your health, your whole freaking well-being, but for some reason, YOU NEED THEM. YOU CAN’T GET ENOUGH OF THEM. THEY’RE LIKE YOUR FREAKING DRUG.
Yeah? Then you need this book.
Mattie used to have a friend like that, a best friend, sister, whatever. JOLENE. That name still gives me the shivers. GEEEEK. Trust me when I say that Jolene is toxic. She’s like a snake, there to hypnotize you, capture your attention before devouring you whole. I loved and hated Mattie. I loved her because for a moment there, she was solid. She knew what she wanted, she knew what she was worth. She was humble. She never thought she was the amazing one. She was the wallflower of every party. But I hated her too. Because she could’ve fixed it all sooner had she just let go of Jolene, once and for all.
This whole book was about letting go, and honestly, it did not hit me until Jolene strutted into the spotlight of this book. Then, I was just there like NOO. Everything was fine until she came back in. But Mattie let her in, so DAMN IT. HAHA. I don’t know if my review is making any sense. I just know that I love this book, up till the end. I love how things spiraled out of control so damn fast, and I love getting mixed up in Mattie’s confused mind.
DAMN. Jolene was freaking toxic. You guys need to read this book, pronto.